ups and downs

since my sub-i has ended and i've been on a 'vacation' month (meaning im not registered for any rotation at my school), i've felt like i've really run the gamut of emotions since i've actually had time to think about being back in the US, process a little about Thailand, and get used to my role(s) as daughter, medical student, sister, and friend again. nothing too extreme, though. my life has definitely been in a lot of flux lately - starting fourth year with a different class, sending many of my friends off to different areas of the country, and figuring out what my responsibilities are (and what i want them to be) regarding the million-and-one extracurricular activities that i have gotten myself into over the past four years. a lot of times these activities - especially AMSA - are the ones that have kept me sustained and focused throughout my medical school career, bu they can also be the source of stress, frustration, and the feeling that i've gotten myself into deep.

my year off was good to give me a sense of perspective. i didn't keep that perspective for too long though and jumped back into a VA sub-i, where i was kept busy for most of the hours of that one month rotation. when it ended, i realized i had a lot more free time (which was supposed to be used for Step 2 studying), but ended up being devoted to what i affectionately refer to as 'life maintenance' instead. don't get me wrong - im definitely studying for step 2 - but im also traveling A LOT (more than i would like). during the month of june, i will have been to Philadelphia, Washington, DC, and Atlanta, all on separate trips. more on each trip below:

1) Philadelphia. i attempted to go to my five-year college reunion at Swarthmore with Chris almost immediately after i got off last call at the va. our flight ended up being delayed a few hours due to weather on the East Coast and then cancelled altogether. chris got a flight attendant to schedule us on a direct flight for the next day (Saturday) arriving at 3 pm. i was exhausted and frustrated with the whole ordeal and really wanted to eat breakfast at one of our fave ann arbor spots, northside grill, the next morning. we ate there and then hustled to the airport to catch our flight. in the airport parking lot, i (finally) noticed that i had accidentally left my purse at the restaurant and did not have any id. we tried to call my brother to have him pick up the purse to no avail. chris was less-than-happy and tried to go talk to an agent about getting on another flight. i felt like maybe it wasnt meant to be and we shouldnt go at all.

the agent said i could fly without an id (you just had to go through secondary screening). i was stuck in secondary screening for awhile and had to run to the gate. i almost missed my flight to philadelphia (where i had been upgraded to first class). this whole incident reminded me of the first time i met chris (less the id part) since it involved running in an airport, chris arguing with a flight agent, and us sitting on opposite ends of the plane.

the swarthmore reunion was okay but i had missed 90% of the events for the weekend and we ended up not being in the philly area for very long - a little over 24 hours. a lot of my friends from swarthmore that i haven't seen since graduation also were not able to make it. however, i did get to hang out with some of my favorite people from tri-co, had a little reunion with people in medicine from my class, and spent some QT with bryan. highlights of the weekend included:

-just being on campus again and being super jealous of the new science center and wondering what happened to parrish (nice student lounge, though!)
-eating a huge bowl of pho for $4.95 at xe lua in philadelphia's chinatown
-breakfast at java joe's in woodlyn
-buying more swarthmore paraphernalia (chris even got a swarthmore t-shirt...the swat fever is taking over :) )
-meeting geoff semenuk, the associate director of alumni relations, who ive been chatting with online for the past month or so. he introduced me to some cool alum who are at the CDC that gave me interesting advice/perspectives about different ways to pursue public health careers.
-catching up with some of my old bio profs
-walking in the crum woods with chris
-a wawa sub and lemonade-iced tea
-king of prussia shopping spree

overall, a good weekend, but a little disappointing in terms of timing, not being able to see all my friends, and wishing i couldve spent more time in philadelphia.

next trip - AMSA june meeting, reston, va. (im doing this as a separate post because i think things will get wayyy too long).